Next week I’ll be in Cape Cod with my family and practicing detachment from technology. Before I leave, I wanted to update you and let you know where I’m at on this journey towards the convent.
I don’t think I ever explained how it is that I can enter the TOR Sisters on August 11th. As many of you know, this past year has been quite a roller coaster. I served as a volunteer with Chi Rho Catholic Service Corps for a few months and then God called me to serve some of my family members in a different capacity. I thought my job would enable me to enter in August, but as time went that seemed less and less possible. Around Easter time, there was sense that God was asking me to really let Him prepare me and strip me of what is still holding me back from being truly free. I thought He was asking me to wait a year and had made peace with that. A few people suggested The Laboure Society, and I even signed up with them.
But God was asking me to make what I like to call an “Isaac” sacrifice. About a month ago, I received an email which changed everything and made it suddenly very real. I would have screamed for joy, but I was at work (there were some silent tears). The TOR Vocations Director revealed that some potential changes in formation might allow me to enter with student loans. Since it wasn’t for sure, the information was confidential – hence that post about secrets.
The changes are official though, which is why I am able to enter in a little more than a month. Candidacy and Postulancy are being extended from six months to one year. During this next year of candidacy I will be living with the community, experiencing their ministries, learning about their charisms, spirituality and way of life – basically, getting used to what will be a MAJOR life change. Since this period is longer than it has been in the past, there will be time for fundraising. The bottom line is, I need your help now more than ever. I will not be making an income and will have limited access to means of communication. In the next year I still need help paying off the rest of my student loans.
You can now send your donations directly to the order, at the address listed on top of the sidebar. I would love to receive letters as well!
Although I deactivated my Facebook, one of my fellow candidates was kind enough to recreate a “Form a Franciscan” event. Please join!
Finally, I would like to address the fact that this life God is calling me to makes little to know sense to most of the people around me, including my family. Because it is my vocation, and I have put many hours into praying and reading about the vows and the TOR Charism, it makes perfect sense to me. I must admit, when people ask what I deem silly questions about being a Sister, I have to check my sassiness and judgment. I need some humility so please ask away! And perhaps I will spend the next few posts on the purpose of religious life, especially the vows and the aspects which seem so radical. Explaining these things helps me put my calling into concrete words and own the vocation of religious life.
Thank you for traveling with me so far and I invite you to continue praying with me as I take this next step!