I had this conversation with God the other day and He has been pressing it upon my heart that I need to share His words with others.
This is how the conversation went:
I’m scared. Trust me. But what if I lose you? I am your rock, your strong foundation – I uphold you always and always hold onto you. But what if I stray away? I will always be right here, by your side waiting for you to return home, to run back into my arms. I am your father and you are my daughter. My prodigal daughter – all heavens rejoice when you finally decide to lay down your life at my feet.
I want to be in your arms always Father but the world is holding me back. Only because you let it. I am stronger than the world and more faithful. Come to me and you will never hunger or thirst. Come to me and you will never feel unloved. I will hold onto you forever and never let you go. But you have to give me control. I want so bad for you to trust me. I know you’re hurting but if you’ll just run into my arms I’ll heal every wound in your heart. You are my child, fearfully and wonderfully made and I am yours.
Plane tickets. Check. Vaccinations. Check. It seems this dream of mine is finally coming true and I can hardly believe it. The only thing left is to scrape up funds for a donation to the sisters and for miscellaneous expenses(I’ll be sending begging letters and relying on God for that).
Some of my readers have been wondering where exactly I am going and what I am doing. I’ll be traveling to the mission of the Missionary Sisters of the Precious Blood in Machui, Zanzibar, Tanzania. I found a satellite picture of the area on google maps. Click here to see it. My main job will be to help teach English at the Machui Community College. Their website is: http://www.machui.org/index.htm
This college was founded in 1997 by the Sisters to provide vocational training to disadvantaged people from the surrounding community. Their motto is to “uplift the marginalized”. Due to the high drop out rates of students in Zanzibar, many young adults are not able to find jobs. The college aims to fix this by offering job training and life skills. They also tailor the job training to the opportunities available in the community, so students are much more likely to gain employment after graduating. Because English is necessary these days to have any kind of economic success, learning how to speak it is very important to the Machui students. I will be helping them gain this vital skill.
During the two months I will be serving in Machui, the students will have a two week vacation from school. The sisters will put me to work doing something else during these two weeks. Hopefully I will also get to travel with some of them and see other parts of Africa. In the same area as the school there is an elderly home called Welezo which I may also have an opportunity to help at. I spend time volunteering at a retirement home here in the states and am looking forward to doing the same while in Tanzania.
Whenever someone asks me why I am doing this I really want to answer, because God needs me to, but feel the need to give a more rational answer. I’m not sure I have one though; I simply have a gut feeling that I’m supposed to be doing this, and trust God enough to hand my worries and fears over to Him.